Secret Heart

Right now I'm having a lot of issues with holidays...I feel even more like a failure than normal I guess. I know my brother's doing something over the top and I just suck. I know it's not a competition but i just wish i could get my family something nice as well. I almost cried in the store the other day after mom gave me money....My parents are stressed about money enough...i tried to give it back but she wouldn't let me...