Nobody Needs to Know...
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
I know I keep to myself too much. I don't let many people get close to me. It's easier that way...the fewer people I let get close to me the fewer that can hurt me. I have all these feelings inside me and they're driving me crazy. Sadness, confusion, longing, anger, love, loneliness, restlessness, and so much more. It's difficult to sort it all out. Here lately I've been angrier than usual. Perhaps not...maybe I'm just showing it more. I don't know. ugh...it's so frustrating! ugh! Meanwhile while all this is going on inside me I paste a smile on my face and hope no one notices. Most times it works. There is the occasion where someone can see right through me and I don't know what to do other than hide.
I don't like pushing people away and I usually don't mean to do it. I've done it for so long that I don't know how NOT to do it. I hate hurting people so much. I hate being so selfish. I hate being so weak. I hate it when people see me when I am so weak and pathetic. It's worse when people know. No one needs to know how I feel inside. Their knowing wouldn't change whatever caused it and I don't want pity.
"Nobody" Kristine Sa
Nobody knows. Nobody sees. Nobody cares.
You walked me home at the end of the day. But you didn't stay.
Where you had to go, you needed to be, and I wasn't there.
How could possibly think I'd wait.
While you decided your fate.
Keep all your words that sounded like home
I'll cry myself to sleep alone
Nobody needs to know
Take all this hurt out of my home
I'd rather die here than let it all show
Nobody needs to know
I showed you all, the strong and the weak-- the pieces of me
were yours to keep. And when time came to leap, I watched you leave.
I couldn't set you free, couldn't let you fly. You were never mine.
And when you left, I broke down and wept, along on my knees.
I prayed that you'd never come back again.
God give me a chance to mend.
Keep all your words that sounded like home
I'll cry myself to sleep alone
Nobody needs to know
Take all this hurt out of my home
I'd rather die here than let it all show
Nobody needs to know
I let you in. Show you my cards...
You broke my heart.
0 comments: to “ Nobody Needs to Know... ”
Post a Comment