Secret Heart

It's so hard to keep up with one blog let alone the several I have. No one reads this one so I feel pretty comfortable just posting whatever here I don't have to worry about pissing anyone off or hurting someones feelings. The only reason I write these things is because I have no one to talk to. Hell even my fish died. I hold my tears inside and smile so no one can see how sad I really am. I'm not sure I was ever meant to be really happy anyway.