Sunday, March 29, 2009
I've realized...I burry myself in everything I do...so i don't have to feel anything... I haven't really cried in a long long time...I wont let myself cry....I don't want to be weak.
i don't know
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Today went okay thus far. I sorted somethings out with a couple people and now it doesn't feel like the Whole world is against me but i do have to deal with some stuff. ugh.
it's so hard...
Monday, March 16, 2009
It's so hard to keep up with one blog let alone the several I have. No one reads this one so I feel pretty comfortable just posting whatever here I don't have to worry about pissing anyone off or hurting someones feelings. The only reason I write these things is because I have no one to talk to. Hell even my fish died. I hold my tears inside and smile so no one can see how sad I really am. I'm not sure I was ever meant to be really happy anyway.